After a crippling break up (a few years ago) I became obsessed with trying to love myself. Like REALLY love myself, the way I wanted to be loved by someone else.I was in so much internal pain. Like there was a huge, gaping hole in my heart. I posted this photo on social media with the caption “beach”. When in actuality I didn’t even want to be there, as I felt like complete shet.
Looking back, I needed the experience. I’ve accepted that at this point, but it’s oftentime incredibly difficult to understand what we’re going through while we’re going through it.
I had to do the tough self improvement work though, if I wanted to do, feel and be better. An empath getting over the heart break caused by a narcissist has got to be one of the most difficult to get over. I began the transformation and I dug deep.
I vowed to spend intimate time with myself, while undergoing a series of extremely difficult yet life enhancing experiences (yoga, meditation, therapy, fire-walking, sessions with my spiritualist…over load on self help books).
I traced all the way back to my childhood. Experiences that shaped me into the woman I was at the time. The trauma, the drama, the baggage that I attracted (read more about it HERE).
Eventually the feelings of being “alone” naturally subsided. I became content in my own space and eventually (without looking or feeling desperate to have a someone else), he came.
And it has been the sweetest most life enhancing experience ever since.Love. Your. Self.
Every thing else eventually falls into place.